Dear Math... (Or any school for that matter! ;-)).

P.S. I'm doing some research on Dyslexia, because a friend of mine was telling me about it, and after hearing and reading a bit about it, I'm pretty sure that's what my troubles in learning come from. So after I do some more research I will write a big blog post about it, and hopefully it will be helpful to someone else too! :-) Just thought I'd warn you about what I shall be doing during my winter break! ;-) ;-) ;-) It actually is really really interesting to me!!! :-) (P.S. Come to find out, dyslexia is more than just flipping letters and reading backwards. Because I don't do either of those things. There is a lot more to it, which you can find out by either waiting for my blog post, or looking it up yourself! :-) Or asking me what I have learned about it so far next time you talk to me! ;-) ;-)).

Crazy!

Pure and Undefiled religion before God is this...

Oookkkaaayyy, soooo....

Ok, so, let's just say my evaluation didn't go very well!
The first part went ok, and then I totally totally flopped the 2nd part, and ended up crying in front of the director of Deaf Studies... Lovely... Yeah...
Here's what I posted on my buzz last night - :-P
"Let's just say, hypothetically, that I like began sobbing as I ended in a totally blank notebook, told him that I didn't know anything, and then gave the girl behind me a hug, and then ran out into the hallway and sobbed into my friends hug, ok? Yeah, that's how bad it was!!! The director came out and was all nice, and calmed us all down though, which was nice of him. I think I totally shocked him with my reaction, and that we were lite his most dramatic group so far (one of the other girls threw up before hand, and my friend cried yesterday), but he was really nice, and calmed us down. AHHH!!!!

One happiness - I didn't cry in front of Job, because he had to leave before ours because he had class - Thank you Lord it wasn't my teachers there!!!! AHHH!!"
Yeah, so that pretty much sums it up! Pretty pitiful, huh? Yeah, don't say it... ;-)

*Happiness*

Somethings make stress, and finals, and evaluations, and headaches, and everything, so much more bearable, and even surrounds everything with love! And one of those things would be great friends!!!!! Because, you all really are so amazing!!!! I know I couldn't have possibly done anything to DESERVE friends like you all, but for some reason God decided to give me the best group of the best friends in the whole world!!! *Huge hugs to all!!!* :OD

Happiness of the day!!! -
1. A package put together from some besties just cause!!! AWW! Thanks guys!!!! Now I have lots of chocolate, and tea, and hot cocoa, and snickers, and sweet notes, and a CD (which I am listening to right now!), and nail polish, and Christian gum (WAY to cool!!! :OD), and a bookmark, and a knitted heart, and the CUTEST ladybug necklace ever!!! to last me through finals AND beyond!! And believe me, it will help me get through these next couple weeks!! Wow, that sure picked up my day - my week - my month!! :OD I feel so loved!!!! <3 <3 <3 I love you all!!! *Dances around* :-)

School Stress!!!

First, if you haven't commented on my other post and answered my question about what makes YOU feel loved, please go do that now. It will only take you one minute, and will make me extremely happy. :-)

Anywho...
I AM SO STRESSED OUT!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! Finals and evaluation for ASL stuff coming up!
My VG class I'm not to worried about - I DO have to do some study for that one, but I SHOULD be ok... I hope... I also have an annoying paper I have to write - blech. It's 15% of my grade, to big to skip it do you think? ;-)
My ASL 3 class - ALL WORK FINISHED!!! WOOT!!!!! :OD Handed in my last paper and final exam vid tonight! We'll still have class, but yay! :-)

So, there are the only two good things... ;-)
Bad stressful things -
Deaf culture class - STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!! I not only have a Research Paper due next week (only 4 pages long, and I have most of the info, just have to write it and give an oral report - blech, hate those!). And the exams are sooo hard. I have done really horrible on the last two. There is a lot of essay involved, and I'll have to make sure I know all the answers to the book questions we've had over the whole semester, because he is going to pick and choose, and he does pick the weirdest, randomest ones sometimes! Grrr! (That's two books worth BTW! *Head bash*). So yeah, I'm hoping for a passing grade - is that a C or C+?? That's ok with me! Just please let me pass God! Please!!!!!!!!!!

Evaluation for seeing if I can go to ASL 4 next Thursday -
AAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can anyone say stress, nervousness, fear, feeling ill? Yes, this is with the Director of the Deaf studies program, and my teacher Job (glad it's Job though, because I'm used to his style of signing.). I'm most worried about the fact that they are going to show us a video and we will have to either write down what it's about, and what the person says, or interpret it, or both. I'm SOOOOO bad at that!!! If I don't pass... Well... Let's just say trusting God is hard right now!

So, prayers would be soooooo wonderful!!!! Not only that I would not be stressed, that I would pass my classes, and not be nervous, but that I would trust that what ever happens, God knows best!!!!!! Sooooo hard to do sometimes, but I DO know that, I just need to act on it! He is sooo good to me, and no matter what happens, it's in His Hands. He's the one who sent me into this program in the first place, and if He wants to take me out, then... I'll shed some tears and get out. But, I don't want to just give up either, just because I fail or something, I want to only get out if I KNOW God doesn't want me there any more. I don't believe that every thing that goes wrong is a sign from God that we should stop doing something, but rather there are some things He wants us to be strong about and overcome. And that's what I want to do, until He really shuts all doors and windows in my face, and paints a big sign that says, "NO AMY! YOU'RE DONE WITH THIS. I WANT YOU SOMEWHERE ELSE."

I need prayer about money as well please. School is expensive!!! My care-taking job has been downsized a bit, so I've lost some money there. But I DID get a call today from a friend of a lady who I used to babysit for, and she wants to meet me, and maybe have me babysit/nanny her kids when she goes back to nursing school. We'll see how that works out, because of my school schedule makes me less flexible then I used be, but I'm really hoping it will work out! God seems to have opened this door for me. I did nothing to pursue this, my old "boss" just gave her friend my number, and her friend called me today, so we'll see!!!! Also, I'm working on saving money for a missions trip this year with HannahBeth, Lord willing. I'm praying about everything right now! But money is a big thing on my mind. *Sheepish* I'm trusting you Lord!! Or trying too! <3

Well, like I said, go comment on my other post!!! :-)
Night all... Er... Good morning. *Sheepishly looks at clock and dreads the days ahead with late nights*

Oh, and my resolve - NO TV OR MOVIES TILL AFTER THE 16TH! MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! If you hear I lazed around instead of studying, beat me. I'm serious here.
Thank you!

Love you all!! Sweet and salty dreams!! <3

Love

1 Corinthians 13:1-10 &13

1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.

2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge,
and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing.

3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor,
and though I give my body to be burned,
but have not love, it profits me nothing.

4 Love suffers long and is kind;
love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;

5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own,
is not provoked, thinks no evil;

6 does not rejoice in iniquity,
but rejoices in the truth;

7 bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail;
whether there are tongues, they will cease;
whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.

9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.

10 But when that which is perfect has come,
then that which is in part will be done away...

¹³ And now abide faith, hope, love, these three;
but the greatest of these is love.

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The greatest of those three is love. Love is such a part of our lives, isn't it? It affects our moods, our relationships, how we talk to one another, etc etc etc.
Jesus was the perfect example of love. He loved us SO much that He died a horrible death for us!!!!! :-)

John 15:13 - "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends."

Wow!!! Imagine having that kind of love!!!! When we follow Jesus, He will help us become more and more like Him, and show us how to have a love like His!!

Now, I think laying down your life can mean many things, not only literally, but also in other ways - such as giving up what you want for someone else, or taking the lower job, or getting up every morning and taking care of those who are in your care, or taking time out of your busy schedules for someone, or driving the extra miles to be with someone, or making a meal for them, or sending them a card when they are sick, becoming a missionary or a pastor, being a mom or dad, etc etc etc, I'm sure you can think up more ways! :-)

I am going to make it my mission to love other people in a selfless way. Sometimes this is very hard for me (especially with my own family, who I am around every day!). I want to give up my life to God, so that He can teach me how to give up my life to those around me.
I want to love people in the way that makes THEM feel loved! Often I just do things that I know would make ME feel loved, but I want to make my friends feel loved in THEIR "love language".

So, I have a question for all you lovely people - What makes YOU feel loved? I really really want to know! (So if you love me, you'd better comment and tell me! ;-)).